written on 2021-6-21 by SAURABH JADHAV | poetry
was in chaos of different thoughts,
and was lost deep down in muddle of mixed feelings,
I wished to come out,
my every movement, action of thoughts
just dwell me
wanted to talk with someone
I open my whatsapp, Even with hundreds of contacts
I felt no-one to express this, what I feel no one to understand this,
loads of friends with type- memes share, gossipers,Intention oriented
They are not bad they are good but at this point, not a fit for me,
still wanted to talk with someone
feelings were strong hard this time they hold my chest
stopped my time, no way for me to escape
now I know my search for talk with someone is hollow
but my heart still wanted to get understood
wanted to talk with someone
closed all doors made it all dark,
just window was open I was staring & rain falls
It was silence some music and rains falls music now,
Now I was only having me to talk,
wanted to talk with who was left
One who left was only me, withought conscious thought
I spoke, I felt there was no gap,
The clouds and muddle which drowned me
Started disappearing, writing this looks beautiful
But reality is daring
I was seeing a naked truths
As it is, What can I do I said,
It happend It happend,
What is happening is happening,
what will happen will happen
the knots you have is of
yesterday you were trying to change yesterday,
You were trying to change truth with your expected reality
and by banishing imaginative reality into real reality
You have made it messy ,
Now you have miseryful yesterday and present with guilts
What I can do
I have fooled me and I took actions in foolishness
I fight to prove foolish actions
was thinking its a parallel line to reality
but my path was to hell,
and I cant accept that, so I fooled me again
and again walked the same path of hell with hope of heaven.
Do I wanted to talk with someone?